Dear Gillian
When your parents fight it’s not about you. They are loving you in the best way they know how. They don’t know any better, even though they are adults and you think they should know better (which you are correct 😉), but they don’t know and they are doing they best they can on the limited knowledge they have – and none of it has anything to do with you.
They probably go to bed feeling guilty most nights wondering what you’re thinking, because they don’t know how to be vulnerable and authentic and communicate with you. And I hear what you’re thinking, “but they’re the adults”. Bless you little one, for they weren’t taught how to communicate with an open heart, so how are they to do that with you? I hope one day you’ll understand – and most importantly I want you to know, it has nothing to do with you.
I also need to let you know, all those times you were left on your own, scared, lonely, sad, no one to confide in or laugh with – again, it had nothing to do with you. Your parents were overwhelmed and preoccupied with disagreeing amongst themselves, finances and lord knows what else – but I assure you, it had nothing to do with you.
All those times when they rolled their eyes at you or snuffed when you laughed or shrieked out in sheer delight at the silliest thing, or the wonders of the world, and you decided ‘what’s the point in being happy. No ones gives a damn anyways’. Let me tell you – Go Ahead Little One and Laugh to Your Hearts Content! Don’t let their miserable outlook on life take away from your joy, happiness and love. And let me tell you – their distrust of your happiness has nothing to do with you – it’s their story, their history, their lack of emotional freedom and their fear that joy could be swiftly taken away from them – it has nothing to do with you.
That time when you were a little bit older and thought no one cared and wouldn’t even notice if you were missing. That time when you swallowed the bottle of painkillers hoping it would all go away, let me tell you why it didn’t work. Your angels and the universe knew you had a purpose. For all the emotional pain and suffering you were feeling, they just knew you had the strength to pull through because you were needed here on this planet of ours. You are needed to show those suffering, there is hope, there is love, there is meaning and there is purpose. You are an inspiration of hope and a beacon of light to show others that they too are worthy of their place on this planet.
So I’m here to let you know now, relax and enjoy life and all that it has to offer. You are divinely guided. You are divinely protected. You are divinely supported. You are divinely loved. The universe has your back little one.
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